Esther Is A Christian

The Christian religion is very strong in the Korean community. This is especially true since we grew up in Atlanta, which is located in the bible belt.

When we were younger religion was not really an issue between us. I mean what 13 year old is considering the seriousness of their faith? However, as we grew older this definately became an issue. She became increasingly more religious as I became more athiest.

One of the reason´s why her religion is so strong is because her father is a pastor. He has a church and preaches to the Korean community. Her family in general is strict for this reason. Obviously, no drinking or smoking alllowed - things that eventually would become my specialties.

This is what Esther wanted people to think of her as.

The issues with religion between us began to show in high school. This is were we began to experiment with drugs and alcohol. We would go to parties and underground raves with Dale to listend to house music which was super popular at the time.  To be honest, we deffinately had fun as Esther always had a wild streak in her. Sometimes it would come out during these parties, but then it would go away once we were back in school during the week. This is when I began to notice the split personalities that Esther would manage. These split and opposite personalities were essentially the result of her pressure to be a good Christian from her family while also wanting to be a fun friend to me and Dale.

This is what she was really like.

I have to admit that if Esther was the ¨Christian One¨, then I was the ¨Evil One¨. My appetite for debouchery was growing every time we went out. I enjoyed spending that time with her, but was often surprised when she would switch back to the ¨Christina Esther¨ once the weekend was over. Not only was it a change in personalities, it also turned into judgement and resentment: I learned to view this behavior as hypocritical as she would switch between each lifestyle. For examples, one day she is at a prayer meeting then the next day stealing merchandise from stores.

This confilct in behavior is once of the main reason I lost respect for her, but instead of it being a small issue, it became a larger issue as the ¨Evil¨ behavior got worse and worse. Each time she commited a more severe discretion, the distance between her personalities grew more and more.